Sad & guilty
Just joined and wanted to share. We lost our beloved border collie, Kelly on Dec 1st. He was 16 and had a great life, I grieved for him but thought I was coping. The last time we lost a dog about 6 years ago we got another one (Pomeranian X Bonnie) very quickly, and decided to do the same this time. Only this time we didn't choose so well. I chose a beautiful border/kelpie who I wanted to train for dog sports. He was a lovely dog who settled in well and bonded with us quickly. Only he was also boisterous and noisy and in Bonnie's face all the time, and he stressed her out completely. We had to take him back to the shelter after 3 weeks because Bonnie was becoming ill with stress.
I feel consumed with guilt because I kind of knew in my heart when I got him that he wasn't the sort of dog Bonnie would cope well with, but I wanted him for myself and convinced myself that she'd get used to him. I feel that I let him bond with us and then abandoned him. It has also brought back all my grief over Kelly's death, and now I'm crying for both of them. My husband thinks I should be over it by now and gets impatient when I talk about it.
Just wanted to talk to someone who understands. Thanks for listening.
Author Celeste Member since Jan 19, 2012