Life just isn’t the same without you. It will never be the same.
It’s now been a year- a whole year-since we said goodbye. I think I have cried a million tears in that time.
I always knew my heart would break when you had to leave me but I really wasn’t prepared. My heart was shattered. I selfishly wanted to keep you forever because you made my world a much better place
Your leash still hangs on the back of the door the way it always did. I don’t think that I will ever take it down- nor do I want to- it is somehow a connection to you and a reminder of the endless hours of walks, fun and adventures we shared. So many wonderful memories and for that I am truly thankful.
Charlotte misses you too and still talks about you a lot. One night she left eight shoes outside her bedroom door - four for you and four for Milly to “help you find your way back home because you must be lost.” Just recently, she told me that if she could make one wish, it would be to have you and Milly come back home again for dinner. At Christmas she was so sweet and left some treats out for Santa to take to you and Milly so that you guys wouldn’t miss out on Christmas Day-I really hope you got them ( and that you didn’t steal Milly’s). And, just so you know, we still sing the Toby Doodle song, but it’s just not the same without you barking the chorus.
I owe you so much and I can never repay you -you were always there for me, as my protector and my best friend. People who don’t understand our bond have never had the joy of experiencing something similar. You made me so happy and taught me how to enjoy the simplest things in life like a walk to the park, a throw of a Frisbee or the ocean breeze (how you loved it). I really hope you look back at our fourteen years together and had a great time too- I am pretty sure you did.
Please know that you will never be forgotten and my heart will always ache to pat that gorgeous head of yours once again. I love you. Forever xx
Author katrina Member since Sep 17, 2010