Lack of sympathy
On Saturday we made the very hard decision to put our beloved Mooky down. Over the space of a few months Mooky lost her eyesight, hearing and sense of balance. She had been diagnosed with cushinoids disease over a a year ago but was responding very well to treatment. That all changed in recent months where it was undeniable that she was declining very fast. She lost control of her bowel movements to the point where she would make messes in her bed, something she had never done before.
After the horrible moment where we had to say goodbye for the last time, i wasnt sure how i would feel. Definitely numb and later, hurting a lot, but the lack of sympathy from work colleaugues, who all knew of Mooky's passing has made it much harder. Although some of them have written messages on facebook they have said nothing to my face, pretty much ignoring me as i came in to work. The past few days have been the worst, as not only am i grieving but i feel like no one at work (where i sit for eight hours a day) cares.
What should i do? Everyone at work knows how much we loved mooky, she was like a sister to me and i would talk about her all the time. Now not only am i sad but i feel deeply angry and hurt. I dont want to talk to any of my colleagues (some of whom i felt close to) and i dread coming in to work everyday as it makes my pain even harder to bear.
Author Natali Member since Sep 12, 2012